I promise you
If you start this trip
Don’t ever fucking stop
God will steal, tear, rip
No way will you ever come out on top!
In the darkest nights, there
How stupid I was
Confusing God for ephemeral Hell
I pray for all those I meet
I can’t tell you who and how I really am
I am every meal you eat
I am every face you greet
I am the aether from the stars below the street
I am that which asks not to eat meat
It is not me, it is not this man
This failure who knows not how to plan
Who has been broken, cast out, disheveled
This (can you even call it a) man, not on your level
The breath upon the waters
Stolen from your lungs
Sometimes all this corpse needs
Just a fucking hug
Teacher told this soul not a joke
How many times I wish I’d choke
Just to die and have it be over
Just to be birthed again
I barely relate to other men
Maybe someday I’ll find true love, and then
